Right now I’m only on the edge of consciousness….so I think this is going to be one of those strange ‘stream of consciousness’ posts….
I’ve got bruises all over my body…it looks like someone’s been beating me…the whole top of my right foot is bruised, which is the worst of it…I’ve got the strangest combination of songs stuck in my head right now: “Avinu Malkeinu” and “May The Horse Be With You”…..I wish I was home in bed right now….I’m so tempted to just lay my head down on the desk and sleep….CAN’T SLEEP, CLOWNS WILL EAT ME….CAN’T SLEEP, CLOWNS WILL EAT ME…and by “clowns” I mean “the administrators”, and by “eat” I mean “fire”…..blah…I hate cleaning, and that’s all I get to do all day, both here at work and then at my old apartment, so it will be ready for the final walkthrough, so I can turn in my keys and be out of that place….One of my new neighbors has a dog that is constantly whining….day, night, it just whines and whines and whines….Set it free! Free as a bird! …bird …chicken …mmmm ….yummy….I’m hungry…I love the Yopearnandows! You rock!…Adam kicks puppies, I even have it in writing….I have so much to do before Shabbat…why didn’t I take the day off? I’m so stupid sometimes….most of the time…all the time…okay, no, most of the time….or just some of the time…yeah….”until they take us away and turn us into glue”…clean up, clean up, everybody everywhere, clean up clean up, everybody do my share…I mean your share…boom, shaka-laka-laka, boom! ….lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai, lai lai lai lai lai lai lai, lai lai lai, lai lai lai, lai lai lai lai, lai lai lai….baruch atah Ad-nai Eloheinu, melech haolam, boreh pree hagafen, boreh pree hagafen….forget the fact that I don’t have any grape juice or wine here….and that it’s not time to sing the havdalah ‘lai lai’ song….yay, Chavurah this weekend! And I’m gonna try to find time to make brownies between now and then. Yay for working ovens!….Road to Jerusalem still hasn’t gotten my name right…My name is not Maria! It’s Marie! No ‘uh’ on the end! But at least they don’t think I’m a doctor anymore, though that amused me to no end…..Roadtrip to Kansas City in April! Ooh, and maybe in December, too! Oooh, lots of roadtrips planned! yay!….McDonald’s arches. I don’t think I can do that with my hair anymore, it’s not long enough…but that was funny anyway….pants!….without my pants! oh, good times, good times….and great oldies, KOOL 105!…89.7 is having their pledge drive….”O Holy Night” marathon until 2 more people call in with pledges! Hahahahahaha! I like WAY-FM!….Don never gave me a copy of that “O Holy Night” that made us laugh so hard…I totally should call him up and call him a punk….”mayim mayim mayim mayim!” “Hey! Hey! Hey!” giggly….I’m giggly now…I love the word ‘giggly’…and my Becky-boo! Yellowñia! Bloop!….fly high, jump and touch the sky high, bring me back to life, I know You’re here when I can’t hear You! and I can’t hear You….Matt will be in concert here next week, and I still don’t know if I’m gonna go. I keep changing my mind, because I want to go to shul for the sukkah dedication, but I want to see Matt and BarlowGirl too….”and I’m about to let goooo, and live what I belieeeeeve”….this stream of consciousness thing is really helping me wake up! Now I might actually get my work done….flowers to sell, fresh green flowers to sell, for eating or in your bath, flowers to sell…I miss Orff…tah, tah, tee-tee tah….tah, rest, tah, rest….It’s so strange, most of what goes through my head are sounds, not actual thoughts…and I don’t know how to write those sounds….monkey cheese banana! jacko!….I miss Mariah and Janice…and Deb and Adam and Janna, and John, and Tom and Catherine, and Shawna, and on and on the list goes….Caw! Caw!…..rings under my eyes, rings rings rings…ring around the rosie, pocket full of posies, ashes ashes we all fall down!….such morbid children’s songs…owie, I have a hangnail….I wonder what webmd comes up with if you search ‘hangnail’….”Wrap any amputated parts in a moist clean paper towel, place in a zip-locked plastic bag, then place the bag in ice.”….my poor little toe that got smashed several weeks ago now has another cut on it, alongside the partially black toenail and scab along the nail bed….la lala lala….pretty black and blue foot….all my bruises are different colors! I have green, purple, reddish, brown, yellow, blue…I’m a rainbow of colors today!….chicken or beef, chicken or beef, chicken or beef with a side order of vegetables!…yummy, yummy yummy in my tummy tummy tummy, oh, koala yummies! remember at the People’s Fair when we got free samples of those? I loved those things, but they were too expensive so we didn’t buy them….my new little bag for my pocket-sized siddur (which is way bigger than my pocket, let me tell ya!) is really pretty…it’s shiny, colorful, and soft….soft….ahhh….okay, lunch is almost over, so I’m gonna end this.